So Here I Am Again…My Never Ending Food Fight with Myself

This is actually a really difficult post to write but I wonder if you can relate to where I’m at? It’s difficult because I once again find myself having to admit how badly I have let myself down, and how I have found myself right back where I started.

My Pre – Wedding Diet

After a life long battle with my weight, I got married in September 2013 and managed to lose almost 3 stone through sheer will, determination and terror at the prospect of being a fat bride. Although I hadn’t reached my goal weight and was still a stone heavier than I wanted to be, I looked ok and survived the photos!

Our Wedding Day: 14th September 2013

But then came the honeymoon! We spent a wonderful few days in Rome, but after all that pre-wedding dieting I just cut myself loose with all the wonderful food that Italy had to offer.

Our honeymoon in Rome: September 2013

And since then I have never really managed to get back on track, despite a couple of half-hearted attempts. So here I am again…

Now Things Must Change

Consequently, the first thing I have come to realise now is that something has to be different this time. Dieting when you are a bride-to-be is a great motivator, but I don’t have that now, so I need to work out what is really going to drive me to succeed this time.

After much soul searching, I have concluded that my main fear, now that I am in my mid 40’s, is falling into ill health. I have always known that obesity is linked to a range of health problems, but I have repeatedly pushed any concerns I had to the back of my mind, as my addiction to food always overruled any good intentions I may have had. A close family member of mine has recently survived a bout of cancer and I guess that has really made me think about the potential risk I am taking with my health, given the weight I am now.

Me today: April 2017

On a far more superficial level, we are fast approaching the summer months, and as things stand, I have little chance of getting into most of the summer clothes in my wardrobe. Drastic action is required and fast!

Do You Have a Food Fight Story?

I would love to know if you can relate to my story. Have you also found yourself on a never ending cycle of dieting, only to put it all back on again? Do you also feel helplessly addicted to food and use it as an emotional crutch as I do? Do you have the same concerns about your health and are you also desperate to break the cycle and find a way to finally lose the weight and be free? If so, I would love to hear your story and in particular, what’s going to motivate you to lose weight now? Please do get in touch.

Thanks for reading,

Nadine x

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