Finally, I have reached a point in my life where I am determined to take radical action to deal with my weight once and for all. Easier said than done, I know. I need a game plan.
The Dilemma of a Food Addict
Now this is where I could potentially run into trouble. The fact of the matter is I have a real dilemma. On the one hand, I know all about healthy eating; what I should and shouldn’t do to lose weight healthily and safely. On the other hand, I am highly addicted to food and rely on it heavily to help me deal with everything that life throws at me. Asking me to eat sensible portions is like asking an alcoholic to only have one drink. I just can’t do it. No, let me be honest about that. I can eat sensible portions in company but the problem lies with what I then eat in secret when nobody is watching.
A Not So Perfect Solution
So my solution to this for now is not a very palatable one, but it’s how I lost 3 stone before my wedding. I relied on meal replacement bars and shakes which I supplemented with lots of fresh food snacks to ensure that I ate 1500 calories a day. I didn’t actually eat any ‘normal’ meals. By doing this, I somehow managed to detach myself mentally from all the ‘real’ food around me at home. As a busy mum and childminder, I spend large portions of my time cooking and feeding children, but by doing this I was able to somehow turn down the volume in the part of my brain that would otherwise constantly have had me thinking about and consuming food all day long.
Food for Thought
Now I am not for one moment suggesting that this is an ideal way to lose weight, but for now, it’s all I know that has ever really worked for me. So this is how I am going to begin my journey now, but part of my plan is to try and unravel some of the psychological processes in my brain relating to food that have got me to where I am. In so doing I hope, over time to develop new ways of thinking about and using food, which I pray will bring me some freedom in the future.
So please don’t berate me for using this strategy as a first step. I would love to know if you can understand where I’m coming from. Do you also have a complex addictive relationship with food and how does it affect your ability to lose weight? If so, please do get in touch and let me know what strategies work for you?
Thanks for reading,